changing of him.....-_-

Memories I kept, were the things I'll never say..

Fourth....

Woke up 12 in the afternoon...Can't sleep last night....I only fall asleep 5am in the morning when I saw my hand phone's clock...Blurring and thinking of a person...A nearest person but actually gets very far far away from me....oh gosh...Don't even know what I'm talking about...It's hard to describe the person actually...A person that cared so much for me before and now...He's caring,nice,gentle,a little bit naughty and a perfect human being for me...

And now...I don't notice it before...I realise that when my/his sister send me the picture of him...How sweet he were with the sweetest smile of him..'he' looks so thin...'he' changes...'he' sick...'he' smoke much..'he' ........'he' .....and 'he'....How worse...I'm shocked!!! I don't even know what he were thinking about now...I'm disappointed...I thought that he were the happiest 'person' in the world and I'm the one who bring lots sadness for him...I'm wrong..Totally wrong!! What happen with him huh?Am I cause that?Am I the one who makes all this happen..? Can I change 'him' back..?'he's' not that bad as I know before...'he' act cool in front of me and keep support me and solving all my problems that I leave to him...wtf...stop it