im goin genting last sat....wf khai chin my roomate,housemate n d oni close fren here...her bro engaged dat day...so her parents come n brg me along to genting...5pm we reach thr...sooo cold dat day..dunno y...we jus kia kia thr...did'nr go play at theme park..ofcos lar..wf parents barh...hehe..anyway, fun oso see d flowers n place thr...so nice....took fresh air...dunno y im so moody xtuali....so cold thr...n d mist covered d sky...makes me thk bout oink...he told me wan brg me thr b4....wan brg me play d spiderman n d roller coaster...still rmb dat he told me dat me won be scared cos he r thr wf me...huhuuu......when we can go le hor?? sis told me dat lastyear ol of dem were sad cos x jadi cum here n find me...im jus kept quite...lonely in my heart...huhuuu...however, im having gud time wf kc n her famili...they treat me so gud..thanks for them..dis r d pic dat we took thr...hohooo

shit among d shit

here me gain...reason here is to drop something sucks here....shit among d shit...hell against d hell...
oh no...i wonder what hapen wf me recently...quite moody barhhh...im starting to hate d way i live rite now...avday repeat d same....r other felt d way i am? or im d oni 1 who gonna feel dis fcuking shit?

i wish to study...but when im started to facing wf it...avthg blur dat stuck on my mind...all question stuck thr...i dunno how to ask fren...so i mus study on my own...dats y im getin like a vampire lately...i study at nite...oh no..its early in d morning...dats a better way for me..cos i cant pay attention on day time..i oso wonder y im quite diff wf others...i cant slp at nite..r dat called anmesia? hell no...im quite terbalik wf others bah...y oh?? who d doctor dat can cure me? pls call 01688736**....nah nah start la me...hahhhahhh

sometimes..i wish to be a small kids...no worries...no tension..play all day long...slp...eat...huuhhh how i wish i am...now im become a big gal...avthg seems so hard for me...y? or i dunno how to manage it? m i? who can teach me to manage well in my lifes?

im so so so tired wf it....starting 4m famili....pa....dont u know dat i miss u so much...pls blessed us dat we r ok k...i wish u r hepi thr...mummy...getting weaker...im so sori dat im so far away from her...im feel so bad xtuali...i know u r sick...i know each of ur pain dat u felt in every single of ur heart...im so sori if i gv cool shoulder for u sometimes..xtuali im jus dunwan u to be so weak...i want her to be stronger...im sori mum...sis...bie...daddy mummy n john...all of u r a part of my lifes...no u all= no me...i cant live witout anyone of u...and also my frens...annie...although sometimes we did fool around...but i know u did understand me...Wanna...my loyal cousin...we play when we r small..oni u heart me among others cousin....thx thx 4 avthg....fuck!!! what im writing here ah?? seems jus like im goin to leave here...hahhhaa...shit...blablalalblablallalllallalala.......

im failure....

Another moody day for me...i dunno how to express my feeling...im so dissapointed on mysef...not oni dat...also to papa,mami,daddy n mami, famili...im sorry...im reli sorry......i failed gain 1 more times...english 4 business....omg...i never failed eng b4...y dis so suck??wat im reli duin lately?

seing all frens duin well and thking whr to further...how bout me? i was left behind resit n repeat...meet lec today..she know my condition....she said wf my condition i'll suppose to repeat...do all my best..hell...i dunwan too bah...i don even thk i can do it..i'll sure fail for another times...im jus a failure bah wat...m i dat worse ka wat???shit!!! wat d fuck!!!!!

don u know im trying my very best???!!! don u know i wanna further oso same as other frens??!!! who dunwan study if can...?? how bout mum?? do u know how d feeling when u lost ur very loves one...?? have u ever felt dat b4? maybe dat r jus a little small2 matter 4 u...''tara, u'll get use wf it''....wAT D FUCKING R U TOKING ABOUT???!!!

well...i cant fight all of u guys bah..im jus a small2 little gal...each words dat hurt me...each word dat tease me...im oni cry in my heart...im d most happier gal in d worldwide...but jus a shit inside...did'nt u guys notice it?? wat?? im so lazy?? sosoo stupid?? soso sucks??? dat worse for u all?? im jus anythg dat u guys wanna me be...tok til u enuf thr...nah nahnah...i'll b ready owes...

i wanna told mami all dis...but avnite mami so tired..mami sori...i jus dunno how to tell u how suck i m now...i dunwan u to worry anymore...pa...pls....can u hear me?? can u felt me?? pls help me pa....huhuuu....

i told mysef...stop crying...no more tears d...stop k...cry in heart...b patient..tara can ma...sis, u too hav a hard time as me i know...wat m i goin to tell is...we r same...wish miracle to happen...oni god know....pray avnite......

we were soo hepi togede

im back!!!

halo avone!!! miss me not??? hahahahhh...i dont think so got people view anymore...cos dis acc r dead so long...so busy...so many thgs to do bah...i dunno wats makes me go into dis tonight...jus felt to drop some...bah..let me blablabla here....

huhuu felt so moody me...many thgs happen on d time i x write dis blog...wat ah?? my beloved papa...huhuhuuu so miss u pa!!! how i wish i can talk n waiting for ur call again..im so damn alone here...i want talk2 wf u....eat d food dat u cook 4 me...hang togede n talk rubbish...wish u wf me n mummy..we du miss u lots...pa...blessed u...don worry abt us k??i'll take care of mum n do all d best...im reli thank god dat i got ur best fren to b my god daddy..they r very cared about me n mummy...no such thg dat can remove dem from me...no money can buy d love from dem...sometimes...i thk dat...y my life jus like a puzzle...on d 1st day i met john n got know dat daddy r ur old dude..b god famili...oh yea pa...u know dat uncle stanley...dat gv us the errow wan..dat is daddy james's bro...his 2nd youngest bro..unbelievable rite?? he was cried when daddy told bout u...dey brg me to kopitiam dat day b4 go brunei...n saw d uncle...he rmb u oh!! he say dat...i hav a fren call jimmy oso..he accident lastime n i owes brg him to hospital...now dunno whr he r...daddy told him dat pa u go heaven d...he cried...i dunno dat was ur fren...hhuhuuu...if i x go d kopitiam n met dat uncle..i thk til now n 4eva we dunno rite..?wat a life ho ....kan gud if u all meet b4...huuuuuu.....pa i miss u...hope u ok thr ya..i pray hard 4 u...love from us, ah girl n mummy..