shit among d shit

here me gain...reason here is to drop something sucks here....shit among d shit...hell against d hell...
oh no...i wonder what hapen wf me recently...quite moody barhhh...im starting to hate d way i live rite now...avday repeat d same....r other felt d way i am? or im d oni 1 who gonna feel dis fcuking shit?

i wish to study...but when im started to facing wf it...avthg blur dat stuck on my mind...all question stuck thr...i dunno how to ask fren...so i mus study on my own...dats y im getin like a vampire lately...i study at nite...oh no..its early in d morning...dats a better way for me..cos i cant pay attention on day time..i oso wonder y im quite diff wf others...i cant slp at nite..r dat called anmesia? hell no...im quite terbalik wf others bah...y oh?? who d doctor dat can cure me? pls call 01688736**....nah nah start la me...hahhhahhh

sometimes..i wish to be a small kids...no worries...no tension..play all day long...slp...eat...huuhhh how i wish i am...now im become a big gal...avthg seems so hard for me...y? or i dunno how to manage it? m i? who can teach me to manage well in my lifes?

im so so so tired wf it....starting 4m famili....pa....dont u know dat i miss u so much...pls blessed us dat we r ok k...i wish u r hepi thr...mummy...getting weaker...im so sori dat im so far away from her...im feel so bad xtuali...i know u r sick...i know each of ur pain dat u felt in every single of ur heart...im so sori if i gv cool shoulder for u sometimes..xtuali im jus dunwan u to be so weak...i want her to be stronger...im sori mum...sis...bie...daddy mummy n john...all of u r a part of my lifes...no u all= no me...i cant live witout anyone of u...and also my frens...annie...although sometimes we did fool around...but i know u did understand me...Wanna...my loyal cousin...we play when we r small..oni u heart me among others cousin....thx thx 4 avthg....fuck!!! what im writing here ah?? seems jus like im goin to leave here...hahhhaa...shit...blablalalblablallalllallalala.......