shit among d shit

here me gain...reason here is to drop something sucks here....shit among d shit...hell against d hell...
oh no...i wonder what hapen wf me recently...quite moody barhhh...im starting to hate d way i live rite now...avday repeat d same....r other felt d way i am? or im d oni 1 who gonna feel dis fcuking shit?

i wish to study...but when im started to facing wf it...avthg blur dat stuck on my mind...all question stuck thr...i dunno how to ask fren...so i mus study on my own...dats y im getin like a vampire lately...i study at nite...oh no..its early in d morning...dats a better way for me..cos i cant pay attention on day time..i oso wonder y im quite diff wf others...i cant slp at nite..r dat called anmesia? hell no...im quite terbalik wf others bah...y oh?? who d doctor dat can cure me? pls call 01688736**....nah nah start la me...hahhhahhh

sometimes..i wish to be a small kids...no worries...no tension..play all day long...slp...eat...huuhhh how i wish i am...now im become a big gal...avthg seems so hard for me...y? or i dunno how to manage it? m i? who can teach me to manage well in my lifes?

im so so so tired wf it....starting 4m famili....pa....dont u know dat i miss u so much...pls blessed us dat we r ok k...i wish u r hepi thr...mummy...getting weaker...im so sori dat im so far away from her...im feel so bad xtuali...i know u r sick...i know each of ur pain dat u felt in every single of ur heart...im so sori if i gv cool shoulder for u sometimes..xtuali im jus dunwan u to be so weak...i want her to be stronger...im sori mum...sis...bie...daddy mummy n john...all of u r a part of my lifes...no u all= no me...i cant live witout anyone of u...and also my frens...annie...although sometimes we did fool around...but i know u did understand me...Wanna...my loyal cousin...we play when we r small..oni u heart me among others cousin....thx thx 4 avthg....fuck!!! what im writing here ah?? seems jus like im goin to leave here...hahhhaa...shit...blablalalblablallalllallalala.......

im failure....

Another moody day for me...i dunno how to express my feeling...im so dissapointed on mysef...not oni dat...also to papa,mami,daddy n mami, famili...im sorry...im reli sorry......i failed gain 1 more times...english 4 business....omg...i never failed eng b4...y dis so suck??wat im reli duin lately?

seing all frens duin well and thking whr to further...how bout me? i was left behind resit n repeat...meet lec today..she know my condition....she said wf my condition i'll suppose to repeat...do all my best..hell...i dunwan too bah...i don even thk i can do it..i'll sure fail for another times...im jus a failure bah wat...m i dat worse ka wat???shit!!! wat d fuck!!!!!

don u know im trying my very best???!!! don u know i wanna further oso same as other frens??!!! who dunwan study if can...?? how bout mum?? do u know how d feeling when u lost ur very loves one...?? have u ever felt dat b4? maybe dat r jus a little small2 matter 4 u...''tara, u'll get use wf it''....wAT D FUCKING R U TOKING ABOUT???!!!

well...i cant fight all of u guys bah..im jus a small2 little gal...each words dat hurt me...each word dat tease me...im oni cry in my heart...im d most happier gal in d worldwide...but jus a shit inside...did'nt u guys notice it?? wat?? im so lazy?? sosoo stupid?? soso sucks??? dat worse for u all?? im jus anythg dat u guys wanna me be...tok til u enuf thr...nah nahnah...i'll b ready owes...

i wanna told mami all dis...but avnite mami so tired..mami sori...i jus dunno how to tell u how suck i m now...i dunwan u to worry anymore...pa...pls....can u hear me?? can u felt me?? pls help me pa....huhuuu....

i told mysef...stop crying...no more tears d...stop k...cry in heart...b patient..tara can ma...sis, u too hav a hard time as me i know...wat m i goin to tell is...we r same...wish miracle to happen...oni god know....pray avnite......