1U wf bubu

da us (mumu bubu) at 1 U-breakfast+lunch

da giant size burger wf fries -carls jr( im lovin da fries yes to da burger too!)

da japanese bean bean wf vanilla waffle ice cream

da japanese green tea ice cream (im lovin it)

da best giant choco ice cream waffle yo!! dis da ppl wf his new hairstyle..taken by me...ada eng dao? (better don puji ah) haha XD

da main title 4 dinner- giant nasi goreng 2 jenis(nice!! must try dis!)

da giant ribena longan drinks....lovin it cos very da not alang alang wf da longan..haha

it called Triple H ( cheesy + mumu dat wrapped wf fried eggs wf salad cream)

da tired n kembang face aft eat such many food in our stomach...hahah

Finis examss finally!! duin nth at kl..waiting bek hometown 4 sure..wat a bored life...r life r jus 4 dis?? study...find good job...work..married?? i mean gal...duh wat a damn rule of a life...im starting bored to face it step by step...can i skip it?? or jus follow law by law..? wats d best future 4 me...hmm....i c nth yet....however jus go through 4 it...bored at kl aft finis exam..bubu r taking me to 1U for shop..ah nope...da most purpose i thk is 4 eat..however im havin such hepi time wf him n sooo X10000 full...haha...i thk da most crazy full dat i ever had b4! it's quite been a while suddenly gettin close wf him..how to say? hmm...might b fate o a lucky 4 me to know him...jus duno how to say...lotsa thg we get da same huh...i guess how can it b!!! i never saw b4!! fud, love, lifes...sames goes to interest..huh...i thk its bit siao siao liao...haha...copy photostate scan of us ba..haha...anyway, appreciate it much coz finally appear a human being dat know hows d feel of me...atleast im not dat lonely..can emo togede n laf togede no matter how r we...yeah claphand!!

how bout showing d food dat we took...ohorrr....will get shock...

marudian genting trip april09

for sure, da best pic of us....presented da best genting trip!!

how bout wearing cool skaft 4 of us?? look cool huh...

last but not least..wf bubu...

wf jacky turn...our mr gamble boy...

me wf cutie ah kok...hahah quite sweet pose...

da most act cute 2 of us in da sticker pix room...hahah

me wf mei mei...great huh...

yeah..me again wf mumu...brg along him 4 hug hug since not enuf pillow..hehe

7 of us in da room 4 1 nite...

on da boat to dinasour land...(got snake thr!!!)

yes...naturally us at choco's land...muahaha

3 marudian gals

early in da morning at cable station

It's been a long long time didnt blogging...yes, my best excuse-lazy..

its a surprise im dropping ere by 4 sum words...my life nowadays...hmm...rush here n thr wf examss...ohh hate it...how i wish i can pass da stupid paper asap then leave da suck college's life!! however, i hv to face it still...life ah life...dat it is...

lastmonth, my longlost fren, all marudians organize a trip to genting..wat a nice n fun trip i ever had..at 1st, yes im worried bout exams..confuse weda reli can join not...but atlast..i decide to join wf bernad's word..jus 4 1 nite..haha..cant blame on him s i thk its blow from my heart dat wanna join 4 it! luckily, i didnt regret 4 it n yet hav a best moment wf all of them...da hepiness dat cums from bottom of my hearts dat longtime didnt hang wf them...hoho...

im goin genting last sat....wf khai chin my roomate,housemate n d oni close fren here...her bro engaged dat day...so her parents come n brg me along to genting...5pm we reach thr...sooo cold dat day..dunno y...we jus kia kia thr...did'nr go play at theme park..ofcos lar..wf parents barh...hehe..anyway, fun oso see d flowers n place thr...so nice....took fresh air...dunno y im so moody xtuali....so cold thr...n d mist covered d sky...makes me thk bout oink...he told me wan brg me thr b4....wan brg me play d spiderman n d roller coaster...still rmb dat he told me dat me won be scared cos he r thr wf me...huhuuu......when we can go le hor?? sis told me dat lastyear ol of dem were sad cos x jadi cum here n find me...im jus kept quite...lonely in my heart...huhuuu...however, im having gud time wf kc n her famili...they treat me so gud..thanks for them..dis r d pic dat we took thr...hohooo

shit among d shit

here me gain...reason here is to drop something sucks here....shit among d shit...hell against d hell...
oh no...i wonder what hapen wf me recently...quite moody barhhh...im starting to hate d way i live rite now...avday repeat d same....r other felt d way i am? or im d oni 1 who gonna feel dis fcuking shit?

i wish to study...but when im started to facing wf it...avthg blur dat stuck on my mind...all question stuck thr...i dunno how to ask fren...so i mus study on my own...dats y im getin like a vampire lately...i study at nite...oh no..its early in d morning...dats a better way for me..cos i cant pay attention on day time..i oso wonder y im quite diff wf others...i cant slp at nite..r dat called anmesia? hell no...im quite terbalik wf others bah...y oh?? who d doctor dat can cure me? pls call 01688736**....nah nah start la me...hahhhahhh

sometimes..i wish to be a small kids...no worries...no tension..play all day long...slp...eat...huuhhh how i wish i am...now im become a big gal...avthg seems so hard for me...y? or i dunno how to manage it? m i? who can teach me to manage well in my lifes?

im so so so tired wf it....starting 4m famili....pa....dont u know dat i miss u so much...pls blessed us dat we r ok k...i wish u r hepi thr...mummy...getting weaker...im so sori dat im so far away from her...im feel so bad xtuali...i know u r sick...i know each of ur pain dat u felt in every single of ur heart...im so sori if i gv cool shoulder for u sometimes..xtuali im jus dunwan u to be so weak...i want her to be stronger...im sori mum...sis...bie...daddy mummy n john...all of u r a part of my lifes...no u all= no me...i cant live witout anyone of u...and also my frens...annie...although sometimes we did fool around...but i know u did understand me...Wanna...my loyal cousin...we play when we r small..oni u heart me among others cousin....thx thx 4 avthg....fuck!!! what im writing here ah?? seems jus like im goin to leave here...hahhhaa...shit...blablalalblablallalllallalala.......

im failure....

Another moody day for me...i dunno how to express my feeling...im so dissapointed on mysef...not oni dat...also to papa,mami,daddy n mami, famili...im sorry...im reli sorry......i failed gain 1 more times...english 4 business....omg...i never failed eng b4...y dis so suck??wat im reli duin lately?

seing all frens duin well and thking whr to further...how bout me? i was left behind resit n repeat...meet lec today..she know my condition....she said wf my condition i'll suppose to repeat...do all my best..hell...i dunwan too bah...i don even thk i can do it..i'll sure fail for another times...im jus a failure bah wat...m i dat worse ka wat???shit!!! wat d fuck!!!!!

don u know im trying my very best???!!! don u know i wanna further oso same as other frens??!!! who dunwan study if can...?? how bout mum?? do u know how d feeling when u lost ur very loves one...?? have u ever felt dat b4? maybe dat r jus a little small2 matter 4 u...''tara, u'll get use wf it''....wAT D FUCKING R U TOKING ABOUT???!!!

well...i cant fight all of u guys bah..im jus a small2 little gal...each words dat hurt me...each word dat tease me...im oni cry in my heart...im d most happier gal in d worldwide...but jus a shit inside...did'nt u guys notice it?? wat?? im so lazy?? sosoo stupid?? soso sucks??? dat worse for u all?? im jus anythg dat u guys wanna me be...tok til u enuf thr...nah nahnah...i'll b ready owes...

i wanna told mami all dis...but avnite mami so tired..mami sori...i jus dunno how to tell u how suck i m now...i dunwan u to worry anymore...pa...pls....can u hear me?? can u felt me?? pls help me pa....huhuuu....

i told mysef...stop crying...no more tears d...stop k...cry in heart...b patient..tara can ma...sis, u too hav a hard time as me i know...wat m i goin to tell is...we r same...wish miracle to happen...oni god know....pray avnite......

we were soo hepi togede

im back!!!

halo avone!!! miss me not??? hahahahhh...i dont think so got people view anymore...cos dis acc r dead so long...so busy...so many thgs to do bah...i dunno wats makes me go into dis tonight...jus felt to drop some...bah..let me blablabla here....

huhuu felt so moody me...many thgs happen on d time i x write dis blog...wat ah?? my beloved papa...huhuhuuu so miss u pa!!! how i wish i can talk n waiting for ur call again..im so damn alone here...i want talk2 wf u....eat d food dat u cook 4 me...hang togede n talk rubbish...wish u wf me n mummy..we du miss u lots...pa...blessed u...don worry abt us k??i'll take care of mum n do all d best...im reli thank god dat i got ur best fren to b my god daddy..they r very cared about me n mummy...no such thg dat can remove dem from me...no money can buy d love from dem...sometimes...i thk dat...y my life jus like a puzzle...on d 1st day i met john n got know dat daddy r ur old dude..b god famili...oh yea pa...u know dat uncle stanley...dat gv us the errow wan..dat is daddy james's bro...his 2nd youngest bro..unbelievable rite?? he was cried when daddy told bout u...dey brg me to kopitiam dat day b4 go brunei...n saw d uncle...he rmb u oh!! he say dat...i hav a fren call jimmy oso..he accident lastime n i owes brg him to hospital...now dunno whr he r...daddy told him dat pa u go heaven d...he cried...i dunno dat was ur fren...hhuhuuu...if i x go d kopitiam n met dat uncle..i thk til now n 4eva we dunno rite..?wat a life ho ....kan gud if u all meet b4...huuuuuu.....pa i miss u...hope u ok thr ya..i pray hard 4 u...love from us, ah girl n mummy..

lack of updates......

Sorry for the lack of updates...Facing final exams starting this Saturday..oh gosh...makes my brain krek krek krek...But dats ok...nOt lonG more will b bek home...i'm WaitiNg the day yah...count count count 18days more!! Miss HomE + my dude + mY FamiLies!! goNna C ya sooN...mwahhxx!

to my haters...

xxxxx TO MY HATERZ xxxxx

WOO....It's quite long never step here yah...so lazy...sometimes no time....buzy....sleeping....eating....dreaming....akaka whatever lah...not your problem pun...kepoh..kekeke

hmm....I got problem with the rich people who live in the snobbish life who treating the poor ones like shit...Stop doing that please...It's not that I hate you...I like you because you have money ma...JUst remember that you're not be able to bring ya money together with you when you die...the formula totally equal with poor people...(copyright from professor Gerard)..I agree with you...

You guys who in snobbish life please stop looking down on those who are poor ok...There's no such advantages for you to do that...remmember...dead= poor + rich

And once more!! Stop looking down for those who have different race with you( for those kind people but have different race with you)...Hey you know this is Malaysia!! We live with all kind of races and religions... If you do so again I suggest you better move from here and make ya own country called SNOBBISH WORLD!

But that's alright for me unless you are kind of good...erm...like Bruce Willis( not Bon Jovi ah)...he's a good guy...rich but kind...I respect him...ahaks...

If you have problem with me...Hate or whatever la...Go meet the school's counsellor...If not effective, you can go meet the my professor( Jhez) I'll give you her contact number...They know whats the best for you...However, if you good to me...I'll treat you as my King....But for those who treat me bad...oh no..So sorry to tell...You're asking for a hell of the life(Devil's world)...You may ask Mr Elphy how is it...

ok...I keep it real and that's a promise...I may be a BIT*H but atleast i'm HONEST....

hmmm....that's all for today....May god bless all who in good, kind and honest people live happily ever after in heaven and own their bungalow and Ferrari( all the big house and good car la)....ok bye bye...adios

USELESS GIRL

USELESS........



Bad result comes from my FAF... oh god...It don't weird me cause I know myself well...But it just...Real 'shit'!! Doesn't mean I don't study man.. Tell you... I've been study from morning till night, night till midnight,midnight till morning..waka...Sounds hardworking yea... BUT WHY DID I STILL GET REAL SHIT RESULT?!!!

It's really terrible for me.. Since I don't even know what I'm study about...I don't understand..I wonder that how come I can take account since I don't know it well? Am I regretting now? I'm told myself '' please don't dear'...cool down and work more...'' Yesh...I did tried... But this what I got...Is that related cause I'm stupid?...

Sis told me that nothing is easy... John do, mummy and daddy do, even my friend do told me that!! yah I know.... Don't you think I don't try for it... I real do... but... How am I going to start? From the beginning?...I've tried but... I can't get it... How???!!!!!!! Real pissed me up! Can anyone tell me what can I do??

I called my daddy after got my worse result... I told him everything that I'm doing totally not well in my studies.. I just want to tell the truth... Well, daddy did trust me that I've been try my best...He said...'' It's ok girl...Do it slowly k... I know you can''... oh gosh...it's really harm me... why don't he just scold me or shout at me? Maybe if he scold me I'll get more better... I controlled my tears from dropping... I can't stop it.. I really disappointed them!! How USELESS I am!!!!

Waste money

ShoPpinG

Pic that I snap in our lunch room...quite scary huh....It shocked me when I go in there...



I went to a place for lunch...Quite fun that place..Called hmm...GASOLINE...Heard before? Lots of teenager going there..Inside got such small room and covered with cotton...Hard to explain actually...Check out there! Then you'll know...( quite bad service because I waited almost 1 an hour for my fried rice)...maybe many customer...hmm...



Drink that I order: Bloody juice....erk...( watermelon juice actually)...kekeke

Purpose: looking for my mummy's stuff that she ask to buy... Can't find...

Bought: My belt( old one broke already), my t-shirt ( for college use), ZA energex lotion & deep hydrating gel ( to cure my lausy face)....[all for myself yah] hahaha

hate!!!!!!!!!

I'm looser....

I'm lonely...I hate the way I live now...I'm far away from everyone...I hate my studies which makes me look stupid..I struggle hard but I fail...I act nothing but my heart is broken inside... I miss my home,my daddy mummy,sis,baby,him.... When I sat down thinking and thinking how worse I am...Suddenly sis send such sweet comment..I told myself that I have them...They support me all the way..Thanks sis...love you all!!








Comment that my lovely sister send that turn my spirit up...So touch...I love you sis!!

Shit!

Bad day!!!

Taking FAF exam today...What a bad day for me... I stood 1 hour don't even know what i'm doing...FAF is very different like other subject..It really cant bluff and needs much calculation and formula...I'm totally blur with this subject..So think properly before want to take account..It's not easy...Hope I don't face this matter some other day...Try....-_-

PLaYLisT

SonG

Tired.......

Tired...

Sixth... EEwiitzz!! I can feel the distance after didn't touching my blog for almost a week..Thinking what to fill here... hrm.......grrr.......arrrr...........

haha...ok ok..lets start!! Life is getting really hectic for me... Busy doing MIS revision... Chapter by chapter... It's quite hard actually... I tried to pay attention on it... Pay and pay lots attention and trying my best with it... Oh man... Don't you think it is an easy subject... I don't even know and understand what's the book( Managing Information Systems) talking about!! I ask everyone all around me to explain for me...I hide alone in my room to read what's going on with it... Facing the exam last Wednesday...For this time, I just keep on bluffing while my brain were loading and thinking what to write... Hope get correct for what i'm bluffing at... fuuuhhh... Settle for half course work.. Now... Sigh.... Waiting for my coming FAF exam... What the heck??! Can I stop this?

Anyone who expert in MIS or FAF please do contact me. taraki_1801@hotmail.com in msn,friendster and whatever....

The weather is on and off...Sunny...Thunder...Raining..Everything comes once...

Enough said....I gotta go...
See you in other day...

bouT mE!!

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Gosshhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Goshhhh!!!!!!!


Fifth... I'm taking half an hour thinking what to write for my fifth blog...Just stop here and blurring...hrmm...Let's talk about my life nowadays...Which full of stresses and tiredness...Student life makes me busy and hurry all the time...Nothing else if not assignment and exam..There are lots of assignment to do and pass up...I remember when me and my friend pass our CBL assignment last thursday...wow...How happy we are...Just felt can lose all our tension there...After passing the CBL assignment,we starting get over to the next assignment..Like no other thing to do accept keep rushing and busy bout assignment..

I'm wonder why we have to do lots assignment when we entered college's life...Does it really help us for our studies?Busy with my assignment also busy with my mid term exam..I don't know how would it be with my next week test..I got MIS exam next Wednesday...That subject really tough for me..I don't catch up what Miss are talking about..Maybe cause of I don't have such basic or my brain slow to turning up and get what do Miss teaching??Goshhhh.....stop now..makes me felt more blur...

I better study now...bye..see you

changing of him.....-_-

Memories I kept, were the things I'll never say..

Fourth....

Woke up 12 in the afternoon...Can't sleep last night....I only fall asleep 5am in the morning when I saw my hand phone's clock...Blurring and thinking of a person...A nearest person but actually gets very far far away from me....oh gosh...Don't even know what I'm talking about...It's hard to describe the person actually...A person that cared so much for me before and now...He's caring,nice,gentle,a little bit naughty and a perfect human being for me...

And now...I don't notice it before...I realise that when my/his sister send me the picture of him...How sweet he were with the sweetest smile of him..'he' looks so thin...'he' changes...'he' sick...'he' smoke much..'he' ........'he' .....and 'he'....How worse...I'm shocked!!! I don't even know what he were thinking about now...I'm disappointed...I thought that he were the happiest 'person' in the world and I'm the one who bring lots sadness for him...I'm wrong..Totally wrong!! What happen with him huh?Am I cause that?Am I the one who makes all this happen..? Can I change 'him' back..?'he's' not that bad as I know before...'he' act cool in front of me and keep support me and solving all my problems that I leave to him...wtf...stop it

hard time...miss my family...

Hard time..Miss my family


Third blog...

Yesterday I went to Sungei Wang with Annie and her sister...Her sister came from Miri, so we bring her go shopping and have fun here...

We use taxi there because too many people using LRT on the weekend..When we reach there we saw there lots promotion everywhere..How lucky were we..We bought lots of T shirt and clothes...The T shirt there were very cheap and nice..We choose and choose...Oh gosh!!!!!! My money also finish...Hey you know girls...cannot see nice nice clothes want..But I don't buy many...I bought 1 for my god sister and 3 for myself...I lack of T shirt here..

After finish buy all those thing,we going back using monorail and LRT..Inside the monorail and LRT,there were lots of people..Some of them are same as we..Also just went shopping and have fun..I saw they bring lots of plastic bag and clothes..Inside the LRT,four of us stand together...I stand and lean side of the LRT see Annie talk with her sisters...They jokes and laugh..How happy and blissful they are..

Suddenly, felt so miss my family...Really really miss them..I don't know why suddenly I felt so down and sad...What makes me come here and study and I become like this...Arent this are the best way for my future??I going back home took bath and i cried..I cry as hard as i can..Only that I can do to makes it better..I am not going to tell my parents and don't even want them to worry about me..After bath and finish everything,I receive a message from my god sister and brother..what a complicated life I have...Cant explain that detail..They told me that they were at Bintulu attending an engagement ceremony and miss me..I were shocked.. Don't even know when they go..Maybe cause i'm too busy for my studies and assignment..I don't even ask where they are and concern them..Everyday they message me just drop by and asking how I am here and I only told all my problems i've to them..I felt how selfish I am!!! I told them I missing them much...And they tried to comfort me and send me their picture..I turn up my mind and OK back..How glad I am..I really appreciate it..Just a little advise and picture from them can turn my energy up..I were here already..What should I do only can struggle hard..as hard as possible..I hope I can.........

Big girl dont cry~

Big girl don't cry

Hello all...Lets get started with my second blog..What to write??I have no idea plus my English are very poor..Are really writing this blog can improve my English??I really hope so..Well, hope you guys don't mind with my broken English..Real broken huh..

Lets talk about what I am doing this whole day...I woke up 11 in the morning( the most late since I live here)...Finally I can have enough sleep today...Before,maximum a day just can sleep for 5 to 6 hours..Quite busy for my studies and assignment..Since today are weekend,I take this opportunity to sleep long..Plus I am not that feeling well actually...I get flu and cough for a week already..Now still haven't recover yet because I don't take any medicine.. No pharmacy around my place here so I cant buy any medicine that suitable for me..My roommate gave me an antibiotic so I just took it(better than don't have)...Now I am still coughing hard for my lung..Hope can get well soon..I am having a frog voice for a week already..haha..

oh..After wake up I get start to tidy my house and wash clothes and everything with Annie(my best friend, roommate and course mate) ! Gosh...My home are getting so messy because we not even have enough time to tidy room..Everyday are so busy doing assignment and tutorial work...Plus studies..oh my god..Now than I realise enter college are totally different with school that I get to use by study abc before..Very different environment and situation!! By the way, I have to learn more independent to get in use by study at college here..After finish tidy everything ,me and Annie watch cartoon Shrek 3..Its a very nice and funny cartoon..Where can lose all our stress and tension after watch it..So you guys who haven't watch,can take a chance to watch it..Really nice...ahaha look like I am doing promotion or what..erm..I think I got to stop now..Bluffing too much..Its late now...Write another blog next time..see ya!!

Hi all!!

Hi and welcome everybody!! This is the first blog that I post!!

First of all, i begin with my name. My name is Tara. Can call me Tara or Apple as my nick.. I am a little girl who live at a small city at Miri,Sarawak.

Well,I would like to say that I am very not comfortable staying here..Maybe I still not get use with the envirolment. Things here tiring me up. Everyday I have torush with my studies and assignments.I am just transfer from DBM2 to DFA2. I dont even catch up with the subject that they are studying.

By the way, I am very lucky to have a friend that willing to teach me. I am very thankful with those who willing to share and teach me in my studies that I not understand. I am also the only child so I am get protected with all my family everytime.Sometimes I'll get stress because I felt that I were over protected from them. Since I came here then I felt that they are very very important for me.At my own home,my family will get me everything I want and prepare everything for me.But here I have to do with my own.No one will help me as if I didnt stand up and do for it.

Althought it's very tough living here,I will try my best to get to use at here. I wish that I will learn to grow up and be more independent one day. I wish that I can do well for my studies for my future to protect my family. Thats all from me. Thanks for willing to read my blog and I wish you all have a nice day!! Peace! see ya!